I ran on the machine for 20 minutes and then did arm weights. I still feel punk.

Not sure why, but I took 2 days off from running. I just wasn't into it.

I had chili cheese fries and 1 chicken strip for lunch. Home made pizza for dinner. My 45 minute walk/run is down to 32 minutes and I went a little further still...

YEA!

I ate badly though, I had a piece of ham and 1 piece of french toast for brunch, and for dinner Rosemary chicken with wild grain rice and spinach, 100 calories of cinnamon graham crackers, Then 2 hotdogs with katchup, mustard, mayo, and relish, and 6 pickeled okra.

I am so glad to be home... I ate well and reservedly on my trip, honestly didn't feel like eating alot.

We are having chinese again. Then tomorrow I am meeting a chicken salad again. That isn't that bad though. I like veggies.

I am most anxious for the REAL loosing to begin. I am carring my weights to Texas with me. Determined to continue my regimine there as well. 11 days into the journey.. I am hanging in...

Yep. I also pigged out on chinese food. But I ate more healthy. Pork fried vegetable rice, 1 egg roll and a few crabmeat rangoons.. I LOVE those things... I did walk the beach though and went 10 yards farther and my legs still hurt alot.

I spoke with my father today, and I am looking forward to the week away and spending time in Texas. I have the strong fear of becoming somehow trapped there or of dieing before I get back to my other half Bill... I have nightmares sometimes for days. This time the started last night. This may be part of my eating.

I am depressed. Some challenges in personal life.

I didn't eat lunch and I had chinese for dinner. Pork fried rice, eggroll, and crab rangoons. It was good and I didn't eat too much...

Ran inside on the machine for 15 minutes and did situps for 15 minutes. No, I didn't count. My tummy hurts though...

Ready for today to be over, but not excited about tomorrow...

This is wearing me out.

I had yogart for lunch and 3 pork ribs, 2 pieces of garlic bread, and a cup of Brunswic stew. It was delightful...

I ran to my 45 minute spot and it only took 20 minutes. My legs constantly ache...

I am going to bed. I want to eat something, but I am not.... :(

Yep! 202

I am pretty tickled. I ate a subway steak and cheese with dill pickles and cucumber slices. MMMMMMMMMMMM!!!! I threw away my favorite part, the end of the roll. Then I ran up the beach in the rain again. Took about 40 minutes. I went all the way up to this 7 story white condo. I was the only one out there, and it was sprinkling heavily, with Phantom Of The Opera on my CD walkman.I have to not bounce at all... I need a MP3 player :) Something to strive for.

I had a Mrs. Paul's fish dinner. Wild rice, and green beans and carrots, with a filet of white fish., 7 grams of fat. Tomorrow back to the grind of yogart and salad...

I might have procured another website design job. I want to talk about my achievements in business and failures for that matter as well, because I think a large part of my emotional stability is related to a full circle of ranging faucets of my life, be it business, love, home, etc... I think it matters.

Today was fucked up. That is just the only way to say it. I was awoken at 1:30 a.m. to the sound of 4 battery backups going, "BEEP" "BEEP, BEEP". The damn electric had gone out. I wake up scared and confused!

We were up until 4:30 am. I got back up at 7 am to prepare for the day. Went to a networking meeting of http://www.GulfCoastPartners.org , which I am the chairman of the membership committee, I am going to Tx next week so it would not have been nice to miss today.

I ordered only coffee with skim milk... Suprise the hell out of me! I wore the white blouse with small red flowers and the peony pink blazer from www.OldNavy.com women's plus section. It is a little tight in the arms, but the shirt is killer. They both go well with blue jeans. It was an ok meeting. Alot to do.

Afterwards, I met a couple of the ladies down the road at Perkins and again succome to only coffee, this time black. I spent the next three hours (seemingly only 1 or so) in delightful company. I have never so truely enjoyed being in a crowded restaurant and NOT ordering food.

Small fight with Bill on my disregard for his time. I said I was sorry. I really didn't do it on purpose, and he didn't tell me he had anything to do that I remembered. But we worked it out, he understands I regret and will strive to be more considerate and he will try to be more patient with me. I think I did sell a website today though to the coolest person.

The rest of the day, Bill & I went back to the Village Inn for a late lunch today. I had the french dip and 5 fried today. Then came home and worked for a bit, at 9 I got up and went and started on the runner and remained for 32 minutes. I was sweating like a hog. Then 10 arm curls with one 12 lb weight in each hand, 10 over the head pulls, and then I stood up, put my feet together, let my arms hang. Then as I slowly lift me arms outwards like a plane, something in my tummy hurt. So I eased back down, and did it a 2nd time, this time this ?muscle? took me to the ground. IT HURT! it is the muscle that runs down the middle line of your tummy.. I didn't even know that exsisted... much less could hurt like that. So I get back up and proceed to slowly do 10 more, the last VERY sloppily.

After showering, and eating a fat free blue berry patch Yoplait yogart, I am BEAT! Goodnight and I hope you have had as good of a day as I have...

I ran, for 38 minutes up the opposite direction of the beach. It was hazy, and I bought a cd player. It worked pretty well, I just must not bounce it too much. I fell on my ass as I began. How is it I trip on my OWN feet? So major embarisment, and this older couple saw me and she yells at me, "Are you ok?" To which I shook my head, yes. Then coming back, this woman, well girl, she had to be 22 or 23 runs by and she is so fit, little tiny shorts, tiny top, and very cute. Well, if I can make it to look like that, I could stand it I think. She can run alot further than I can, but she is in practice... If your some over-weight teen reading this, PLEASE START NOW! Regardless of how much satisfaction that cookie or treat or plate might afford you, it will hurt you ten fold some day. The longer you wait, they harder it gets to just START..

I had 2/3 of a french dip sandwich and 6 french fries at Village Inn today with a glass of water. Solid food was nice. Tonight we are having chinese. I am going to take it healthy..

I had blueberry patch yogart for lunch and a salad with baked chicken for dinner. It was ok. Little blue cheese sprinkles, tomatoes...

I didn't walk or run. So I did arm weights. Over my head and up for the bottoms and then up from my knee for uppers. Then I found that by standing with my feet together, my arms towards the floor in front of me, and with 12 lbs in each hand, if you lift your arms outwards, it is REALLY difficult! New exercise!!

Bill & I went for another brisk walk, not quite as far though. I had blueberry patch light fat free yogart for lunch. A salad and 2 scoops of BBQ pulled pork for dinner. Lots of water...

I feel ok, I am anxious for the loosing to begin. I weighed though and I am 205, which is muchly down from my 215 high last month.

Bill & I walked briskly on the beach. The same distance I ran Wednesday. Then I came home and drug out my runner machine. You move your arms back and forth also. I was on it for 30 minutes. Then I lifted weights just a little. My arms hurt alot today.

I couldn't run. I tried, my legs cramped all up. So I came back inside and got out the two 12lb weights. I lifted them over my head and made the bottoms of my arms hurt. Then I stood up and went up and down until I almost hit myself in the head...

I hope this works...

I ran down the beach in the rain. 45 minutes. Yes, I walked a little. I think at one point I about died. But I have started.